Patients

The Lord today brought my attention to another demon I have in my life, lack of patients. I sometimes wonder why is it that this person who has betrayed me is happy. The first verse he had me read was Ecclesiastes 7:8 which reads,

"The end of a thing is better then its beginning; the patients in spirit is better then the proud in spirit."

I read this and think about things I have asked for from the Lord. Not only now but in the past. One thing I have been granted a second chance in is school. After I dropped out of college in 2005, I have been wishing to return one day. Even through all the heartaches and let downs in my life, I found myself able to return back in school. Even though I did not view it at the time, because my mind was distracted by other obstacles, God had granted me a way back in. I have struggled in life since I dropped out and at times did not see myself no where but dead end job after dead in job. I was blessed to have the ability to work two jobs at a time, not only bless to be able to work the but to even have two jobs at a time. But my lack of patients in other obstacles brought anger in my heart which is mention in Ecclesiastes 7:9,

"Do not hasten in your spirit to be angry, for anger rest in the bosom of fools"

My lack of patients sometime anger me, and in results had me do things that I regretted. Like snapping at a love one, or just actions that were out of my character. The result of realizing what I did was stupid had me going into a depression and made me long for past days. But God says in Ecclesiastes 7:10,

"Do not say, "Why were the former days better than these?" For you do not inquire wisely concerning this."

Thinking about the past can bring someone to a depress state, especially if the past was better. With patients a person can be able to return to those days again. The last thing I am going say is Ecclesiastes 7:14

"In the day of prosperity be joyful, But in the day of adversity consider: Surely God has appointed the one as well as the other, So that man can find out nothing will come after him."