Todays since it is New years eve and we are bout to enter a new year, I felt I should talk about dwelling. Even though to me, now a days New years eve is nothing but another day, just the next day is a new year starting. A lot of people like to try to leave old habits in the last year. One big habit I have and I know others have is dwelling, dwelling on the past, whats going happen in the future, what someone did to you, whether to forgive them or not. The first thing I am going talk about is Forgiveness in its entirety. A lot of people talk about I'll forgive someone but I wont forget what they did. I'm going tie Forgiveness and being able to forget together, and why its better to do both at the same time.
Mark 11:26 says "But if you do not forgive neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses"
Now, a person can be the greatest and a perfect angel, but because they hold hate in their heart towards another person, for what ever actions, they might not go to heaven. How does a person expect God to forgive them of their wrongs when they can not forgive another person. A person can not truly forgive another person if they still hold those thoughts of the action the other person may have done. Now some people may say I do not want to be a fool for no one. This brings me to two examples, the first one is Matthew 6:14 which reads.
"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you"
Another verse in the bible talking about forgiving and God forgiving you. Now you say you do not want to be a fool for putting your trust in that person again. Matthew 6:24-25 reads.
"No one can serve Two masters; for either he will hate one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mommon. Therefore I say you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. is not life more then food and the body more than clothing?"
With that said, you forgive that person and you accept them back in to your life. Do you not believe that God will watch over you if that person does you wrong again. What if you turn your back on God and he says he is done with you. That other person might need your guidance in the future. If God has placed that person in your life, it is for a reason. When that reason has been fulfilled I am sure he will take them out once again.
But I am going use that same verse to talk about dwelling on life too. If you want to re read the verse you can, but look at what it is saying. If your sitting there worried about what the next day is going bring, can you 100 percent can say that you trust in God. Matthew 5:26 reads,
"Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?"
Look at what it is saying. The birds carry on with their day to day activities, and God makes sure that they are taken care of. They do not worry, but us of mankind with our built in emotion worry bout things like this. Where is our next meal coming? How am I going get money to survive? If you truly believe in God, do you not think he sees your situation and will take care of your problems. One has to be able to let go and let God. As long as you believe in him 100 percent, I am sure he will take care of you. I found myself at time worry about little things as money problems. Many times God let it pass and still made sure I had the money I needed for shelter. But when I was in Greensboro, I panic and did not know what I was going to do. Before I trusted in God I gave up. Packed all my stuff and moved back to my parents and lost my own place of residents before I even tried to talk to my Landlord. Sometimes I regret I did that, But like Ecclesiastes 7:10 I learn I should not dwell on what I had. I can not turn back the hands of time and get what I once had. I just have to look at what I do have and see where it carries me.
Matthew 6:22-23 reads,
"The lamp of the body is the eye. If therefore your eye is good, your whole body will full of light. But if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in you is darkness. how great is that darkness!"
I believe this is saying if your not seeing positive things for yourself, then you are basically dying inside. That when people slip into a depression. Depression is that darkness within. Some time it is hard to see positive when the world does not provide it, but some times a person has to seek out that positive for their self to get it. That all comes from trusting in God, and his abilities to make your life better.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Patients
The Lord today brought my attention to another demon I have in my life, lack of patients. I sometimes wonder why is it that this person who has betrayed me is happy. The first verse he had me read was Ecclesiastes 7:8 which reads,
"The end of a thing is better then its beginning; the patients in spirit is better then the proud in spirit."
I read this and think about things I have asked for from the Lord. Not only now but in the past. One thing I have been granted a second chance in is school. After I dropped out of college in 2005, I have been wishing to return one day. Even through all the heartaches and let downs in my life, I found myself able to return back in school. Even though I did not view it at the time, because my mind was distracted by other obstacles, God had granted me a way back in. I have struggled in life since I dropped out and at times did not see myself no where but dead end job after dead in job. I was blessed to have the ability to work two jobs at a time, not only bless to be able to work the but to even have two jobs at a time. But my lack of patients in other obstacles brought anger in my heart which is mention in Ecclesiastes 7:9,
"Do not hasten in your spirit to be angry, for anger rest in the bosom of fools"
My lack of patients sometime anger me, and in results had me do things that I regretted. Like snapping at a love one, or just actions that were out of my character. The result of realizing what I did was stupid had me going into a depression and made me long for past days. But God says in Ecclesiastes 7:10,
"Do not say, "Why were the former days better than these?" For you do not inquire wisely concerning this."
Thinking about the past can bring someone to a depress state, especially if the past was better. With patients a person can be able to return to those days again. The last thing I am going say is Ecclesiastes 7:14
"In the day of prosperity be joyful, But in the day of adversity consider: Surely God has appointed the one as well as the other, So that man can find out nothing will come after him."
"The end of a thing is better then its beginning; the patients in spirit is better then the proud in spirit."
I read this and think about things I have asked for from the Lord. Not only now but in the past. One thing I have been granted a second chance in is school. After I dropped out of college in 2005, I have been wishing to return one day. Even through all the heartaches and let downs in my life, I found myself able to return back in school. Even though I did not view it at the time, because my mind was distracted by other obstacles, God had granted me a way back in. I have struggled in life since I dropped out and at times did not see myself no where but dead end job after dead in job. I was blessed to have the ability to work two jobs at a time, not only bless to be able to work the but to even have two jobs at a time. But my lack of patients in other obstacles brought anger in my heart which is mention in Ecclesiastes 7:9,
"Do not hasten in your spirit to be angry, for anger rest in the bosom of fools"
My lack of patients sometime anger me, and in results had me do things that I regretted. Like snapping at a love one, or just actions that were out of my character. The result of realizing what I did was stupid had me going into a depression and made me long for past days. But God says in Ecclesiastes 7:10,
"Do not say, "Why were the former days better than these?" For you do not inquire wisely concerning this."
Thinking about the past can bring someone to a depress state, especially if the past was better. With patients a person can be able to return to those days again. The last thing I am going say is Ecclesiastes 7:14
"In the day of prosperity be joyful, But in the day of adversity consider: Surely God has appointed the one as well as the other, So that man can find out nothing will come after him."
Anger issues
Today God brought my attention to the subject of anger, and how one person anger can effect another person personality. He also had me revisit my shady ways. In Proverb 22:24-25, it talks bout how one should not befriend an angry person. That their anger will rub off on you as well. While reading this I think about my temper problem and past arguments with some people. Some people I have argued with were naturally angry people, but the people who were not and I notice a change in them after interacting with me, made me just sit and think. I was the reason they started acting out of character. My anger and temper is something that I have tried to control for awhile but just knowing how it effects other individuals makes me strive to want to fix it.
I also talked about my shady ways being revisited. in James 4:3 it talks about when a person ask for something but does not have the proper intentions for the use. I think back to every time I asked for something and it did not go my way. I have to look at the actually thing I was asking for and how in my mind I thought it would benefit me. Was the results of the action going be one of personal pleasure or personal growth. Sometimes a person might get that result of personal pleasure, but the one that will give a person personal growth is the one God will most likely answer.
This brings me to a statement I have mention on facebook. The personal pleasure most likely was not granted by God, most likely it was the Devil that gave you a loan. They are times when a person feels they have been blessed with somethings, when in reality it is just a loan from the Devil. The Devil at times will tease a person to test their faith, and sometimes when things do not go their way, they become angry with God. That is something the Devil wants, a person to feel that God granted them that blessing, when in reality it was the Devil. When it is taken away, a weak spirited person most the time might curse the Lord in anger, and wonder why it was taken away.
I also talked about my shady ways being revisited. in James 4:3 it talks about when a person ask for something but does not have the proper intentions for the use. I think back to every time I asked for something and it did not go my way. I have to look at the actually thing I was asking for and how in my mind I thought it would benefit me. Was the results of the action going be one of personal pleasure or personal growth. Sometimes a person might get that result of personal pleasure, but the one that will give a person personal growth is the one God will most likely answer.
This brings me to a statement I have mention on facebook. The personal pleasure most likely was not granted by God, most likely it was the Devil that gave you a loan. They are times when a person feels they have been blessed with somethings, when in reality it is just a loan from the Devil. The Devil at times will tease a person to test their faith, and sometimes when things do not go their way, they become angry with God. That is something the Devil wants, a person to feel that God granted them that blessing, when in reality it was the Devil. When it is taken away, a weak spirited person most the time might curse the Lord in anger, and wonder why it was taken away.
Learning to forgive
When I wake in the morning, I first ask the lord to bless the people in my life and the people who have touched my life at one point in time. Then I ask him to help me forgive myself of my past journey. Before I go into my message, I would like to bring up why I still pray for those who are not in my life. Just because a person is no longer a day to day impact on my life, does not mean I still don't wish them well on their journey in life. That would be like forgetting all the things they were to me while they were in my life. No matter what I did or they did, for us not to be close as once before, does not erase the journey we did have. But that another message I might go into another day if I feel is necessary.
But my thought for the day is being able to forgive yourself. Through my journey in the bible this year I have studied the one demon that I felt consumes me. In the past holding grudges or seeking revenge, was something that I had a problem with. I could list all the chapters and verses, but Im not at this time. I dont feel that it is necessary at the time. This weekend I found a verse that actually links seeking forgiveness, and actually following through with your promise of forgiving to another person. One person can not truly forgive another person and have their heart consumed with hate. This verse I will share 1 John 3:13-14 talks about hating another person, and how hating another person is like killing your insides. I would at times say out loud that I forgave someone, but then my actions which is spoken in Proverb 14:17 of anger showed another one of my demons.
Hate and anger I believe are two combinations that can actually cripple a person, and these two actions did just that. Some people may know I broke my ankle in MD. The action I had performed was from anger towards another person and their words to me. Which made me not have the patients I needed that could of prevented me from doing certain actions. That was not the only time anger took a hold of me in that setting, and caused me to further distant my relationship with a certain person. I asked for forgiveness but my actions at time did not show that my words were genuine. I began to not only hate other but I began to hate myself for my actions. This gave more demons an easy access into my life, which began to further bring my situation down..
In Proverb 14:17 it also mentions about what our intention are after performing an act. Even though sometimes our intention might seem genuine, God knows the truth. So down the line he might prevent us access to the thing we wanted, that we might of gotten from false actions. I started gathering all these ideas in my head about my actions in the past two years, and did I truly deserve all that happen. I started looking at everything that happen as a key to unlock the door to the knowledge I have started to obtain about life itself. Tools I needed to better my life, at this point forgiveness of myself and controlling my anger are those tools.
Seeking the forgiveness of someone and dwelling on the thought that they may or may not forgive you, who you asking is not genuine. A person is just asking so they may get back in that person good eye. If a person ask for forgiveness then shows through action that it is genuine they might get that person forgiveness. If it is genuine and God knows it is genuine, then the person not being able to forgive another person is between that person and God. I had to to realize it is not my place to dwell on the action of another person. I can aide them in seeking God but I should not dwell to the fact it compromise my actions in life. That is like an open window to a demon.
Every morning I seek guidance from God and I feel that I have finally open my eyes to see that path. It is not all clear to me, but I now recognize it under my feet. A person the other day ask me why I do these Blogs, and I always gone with the mind frame, you never know who might be going through the same struggle as you, and maybe I can help them better then I can help myself.
But my thought for the day is being able to forgive yourself. Through my journey in the bible this year I have studied the one demon that I felt consumes me. In the past holding grudges or seeking revenge, was something that I had a problem with. I could list all the chapters and verses, but Im not at this time. I dont feel that it is necessary at the time. This weekend I found a verse that actually links seeking forgiveness, and actually following through with your promise of forgiving to another person. One person can not truly forgive another person and have their heart consumed with hate. This verse I will share 1 John 3:13-14 talks about hating another person, and how hating another person is like killing your insides. I would at times say out loud that I forgave someone, but then my actions which is spoken in Proverb 14:17 of anger showed another one of my demons.
Hate and anger I believe are two combinations that can actually cripple a person, and these two actions did just that. Some people may know I broke my ankle in MD. The action I had performed was from anger towards another person and their words to me. Which made me not have the patients I needed that could of prevented me from doing certain actions. That was not the only time anger took a hold of me in that setting, and caused me to further distant my relationship with a certain person. I asked for forgiveness but my actions at time did not show that my words were genuine. I began to not only hate other but I began to hate myself for my actions. This gave more demons an easy access into my life, which began to further bring my situation down..
In Proverb 14:17 it also mentions about what our intention are after performing an act. Even though sometimes our intention might seem genuine, God knows the truth. So down the line he might prevent us access to the thing we wanted, that we might of gotten from false actions. I started gathering all these ideas in my head about my actions in the past two years, and did I truly deserve all that happen. I started looking at everything that happen as a key to unlock the door to the knowledge I have started to obtain about life itself. Tools I needed to better my life, at this point forgiveness of myself and controlling my anger are those tools.
Seeking the forgiveness of someone and dwelling on the thought that they may or may not forgive you, who you asking is not genuine. A person is just asking so they may get back in that person good eye. If a person ask for forgiveness then shows through action that it is genuine they might get that person forgiveness. If it is genuine and God knows it is genuine, then the person not being able to forgive another person is between that person and God. I had to to realize it is not my place to dwell on the action of another person. I can aide them in seeking God but I should not dwell to the fact it compromise my actions in life. That is like an open window to a demon.
Every morning I seek guidance from God and I feel that I have finally open my eyes to see that path. It is not all clear to me, but I now recognize it under my feet. A person the other day ask me why I do these Blogs, and I always gone with the mind frame, you never know who might be going through the same struggle as you, and maybe I can help them better then I can help myself.
Introduction
Im going try talk about my life through the bible with out degrading anyone else that is involved character. Most that know me know the past two years has not been easy for me on many levels. Things took a turn when my GF of 3 years decided to call it quits. We still went on with our plan to move to MD together. At the time I saw it as a way to start fresh and get away from things that was a factor in our relationship, and possibly rebuild. My grandmother ended up dying and the same week I broke my ankle while rushing to the airport. I talk about that later on using a bible verse. Me breaking my ankle put us in a financial bind at the time. Later on my ex started catching feeling for another guy. On top of that later that yr I got in a car accident, which because they were no witness I did not get any money. I lost my car, which hurt me a lot because I loved that car. I got to the point I decided to move, because I could not take the environment no more and life was becoming depressing.
My depression came and went from time to time and I question the meaning of life and my purpose. I read the bible every now and they for inspiration. But bad things happen and kept coming in to my life. Things really took a turn came the Christmas of this year. But I found myself in the Bible all day and that is when my eyes were open to my personal mistakes in life and why things were the way they were.
I call this site Journey to God because I am trying reach that point in my life, the point I can say I am with God fully. As I take time to read the bible and explain how I interpreted the verse and how it motivates me to look at the world different to better myself, I hope that it also helps other people in the mist. Ive learn that you never know what someone else is going through in life, and maybe something you say can help them along their journey to actually better them self.
My depression came and went from time to time and I question the meaning of life and my purpose. I read the bible every now and they for inspiration. But bad things happen and kept coming in to my life. Things really took a turn came the Christmas of this year. But I found myself in the Bible all day and that is when my eyes were open to my personal mistakes in life and why things were the way they were.
I call this site Journey to God because I am trying reach that point in my life, the point I can say I am with God fully. As I take time to read the bible and explain how I interpreted the verse and how it motivates me to look at the world different to better myself, I hope that it also helps other people in the mist. Ive learn that you never know what someone else is going through in life, and maybe something you say can help them along their journey to actually better them self.
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